Wednesday, April 8, 2009
reading the Zahir by Paulo Coelho
But i really love this book..i really love how he wrote each sentence,,
it is enveloped with such magical power to make his readings finish and turn to the next page...
it's really hard to put this book down..
i actually finished reading The Pilgrimage first..
it really took me to another world..
i though it was outside of my self, but then i realized that the character is me..i am also doing my own pilgrimage as i read this book... i think i also felt i was in trance because of the words...
i tried some exercised indicated in this book as well..
really nice..
Monday, April 6, 2009
chat with my cousin abroad
she's the one financing my educarion now together with her husband..
we just chat for a while with webcams on so we can see each other.
she's aldo glad she saw us all here including my brothers, my dad, her sisses and her mom..
hope to have another chat tomorrow...
it's night there at Texas so they gotta sleep...
they need to go to work early...
bonding time with my chums..swimming mode!

yan ang complete list (i think..) namin na pumunta sa swimming just a few moments ago at Villa Carlota Resort...
kakauwi lang namin..
nakakapagod pero bitin ung time..madami kasi sa boys kailangan na umuwi eh..(oh diba? ung boys pa ang walang late permit sa parents...haha..)
pero ok naman kasi enjoy..bonding time uli after a long time na di kami nagkita-kita...
sana maulit uli...soon..
sayang lang..walang pics..busy kasi lahat..
"thanks for another happy memory guys!"
Saturday, April 4, 2009
my brother's graduation...
i was very unfortunate to be unable to see my brother march to the stage..
i really tried my best to finish all the processes of my summer enrolment in order to be home early, but despite all the rush and haste, i didn't make it..
one reason for the delay is that i also dropped by SM to buy him a graduation present..
hmmm..
i'm still sad...
his sister was not there to clap for him when his name was called to receive his diploma...
UHLEN VAN R. VILLA,,,
so sad..
so, so sad..
i hate myself...
miley cyrus: the climb
Genre: International
Artist: miley cyrus
..really nice..
it's been on my playlists for weeks,,,
the words..
the tune..
the inner thought..
i actually don't like miley but i'm really caught by this one...
the MTV is so dramatic as well..
i'm not so much into the way she sang this...
i just love the song...
my first night at the dorm
though may kasama ako sa room..of course nanibago pa rin ako...
katext ko pa kasi before going to sleep yung isa kong blocmate..
i tried to sleep...edi ok na...
pero pagising-gising ako..
then nagforward ba naman unf blocmate ko ng ghost messages,,,
ayun..lalo tuloy ako nahirapan,,
pero i think sa simula lang naman eh,,,
sana magsurvive,,,
haha,,,
summer enrolment
Thursday, April 2, 2009
baguio-bound bea
enrolment tomorrow...
hope to be back tomorrow night...
graduation day of my bro,,
gotta see him march...
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Chosen Blindness
Sunday, March 29, 2009
i dreamt about my Econ102 Prof pagkatapos ng exam...(i just forgot to post this..)
hmmmm...alam nyo naman ang dreams, super magulo...
setting: classroom somewhere...characters: ako, Ma'am Gladys and highskul friends (na di ko naman naging classmates ever, except in this dream)..
basta magulo eh...
after kong lumabas ng class, parang may naaalala akong scene na slightly nagsasagutan si Ma'am and isang classmate...
paglabas ni Ma'am, ayun umiiyak,,
hala..first time kong makita si Ma'am na umiyak...ever,,
,sobrang unusual talaga..
tapos super comfort naman daw ako kay Ma'am...
gusto ko syang yakapin pero ewan bakit di ko ginawa,,hay,,,ang weird talaga,,,
rain, rain go away...!!!!
grrrrrrr.....

i don't know why but i always hate the rain...
it makes me feel SAD...
SLEEPY....
LIFELESS...
it seems that i can't do anything good and right when the rain is falling...
i wish i have this anti-gravity power to keep the rain hanging up
as clouds there in the pale sky,
so they won't fall...
so there's no need for me to bring my 3-fold umbrella...
so there won't be sticky mud on the grounds that would surely mess my shoes...
so there won't be flood that gives different kinds of illness to the kids
that enjoy swimming in it.

i just hate the rain...
but i can't be so selfish about it.
many still wish for this rain.
the farmers - to have healthier crops...
to the forest so it would be nourished...
for the plants to grow...
to sustain a new life...
to continue existence,,,
i guess this is what the nature wants us to learn...
there are thing we despise,
but we must accept their existence because they fuel the lives of others.
oh...
but i still hope,,
the rain would end soon...
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Earth Hour 2009
we participated in this life-saving moment...the Earth Hour 2009...
by 8:30 in the evening..all lights are off and good thing, almost the whole neighborhood joined as well.
The only lights that can be seen are those yellow and while street lights on the main roads..
aside from that, our place was enveloped in total darkness...
So nice to see many participated in this aim... =)
As a Greenpeace member, I encouraged many people to join and do the same thing.
It's just a small thing, a small sacrifice of darness in order to a better kind of light - for me, for you, for the next generation.
The Philippines is an active participant on these kinds of activities...
Hope everyone will participate as well in the future Earth Hours...=)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
so, so, so tired...
...i went to the city this afternoon to deposit some money..
the sun was striking its painful hot rays...
..
i felt really warm...
after depositing, i went to Tarlac State University to get the exam results of my brother,,
then i went to the mall...
walk-and-walk-and-walk-under-the-bright-bright-sunshine.
my skin is getting darker even though i'm using my Totes umbrella.,..
from the mall..
i made my way to the main street...
then to Far East Trading..
i bought tiny beads which eventually popped into jelly-like gaudy spheres when soaked for a few hours in the water...really nice..
then i looked for a place to buy some other stuffs,,,
..finally..
i rode my way to the terminal home,,
Good thing, i accidentally bumped with a friend..
an elementary and high school classmate..
we chat with each other while waiting for a ride...
she told me updates about some of our friends,,,
It's so nice to see an old friend again after a long time,,,
..
I went home exhausted..
yet happy for what had happened...
so nice to bring back the memories,,,,indeed,,..
Friday, March 20, 2009
a happy feeling...after finishing my last exam for this sem... =)
sa wakas, natapos din ang madugong exam sa 102!
ang sarap ng feeling...!!!!
of course, my mga di ako nasagot and sure din n meron akong mistakes pero ok lng...
at least feeling ko papasa naman kahit pano...
tapos na ang exams...
pwede na huminga...
submissions na lang na ibang requirements (psych 140) and STFAP...hay...
then..
uwian na!!!
it's over......!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, March 16, 2009
a sense of fulfillment on training a pigeon
ang galing-galing ni Tetay!!!
after our depressing training with Am and Roan...
thank God, she learned 3 tricks!
we are so proud of her!!!
we almost cried every night while training her to do the tricks in my place...
and we almost give up because of this...
but our hard work paid off.
we presented her this afternoon to Prof. Astudillo and ayun.,.
she was glad with her amazing performance...
she said that our pigeon was a fast learner...
with no mistakes,,,
our Prof. congratulated us for a job well done......
she gave us 100 points for this,,,a perfect score actually...
it was really fulfilling for me!!!
i can't believe it...
we made this thing happen!!!!
so great!
(sorry, maybe I'm over acting already but this is how i feel right now...haha
please bear with me ..
Saturday, March 14, 2009
so hectic...i can't even breathe
we have no classes.
but it's more demanded to go to school today.
We have our class practice for PE2 - Dance Aero.
You know what happened?
- I came first
- Not even a half attended
- We practiced at Sunshine Park where we were bathed with smoke (eeew! so annoying because i just took a bath!)
- We learned just a few steps
- We dismissed early
- Nothing so much was gained
Right now, i'm here at the university library (AGAIN) to find more reading materials for my exams. Library hours is extended up to 7 in the evening. I still have to do research for our experiment. I need to do my auto-shaping for my Psych140 class. Our Behavior Modification Program (BPM) group project is still hanging.
I have more than a hundred-page reading to get done til Monday.
So pathetic.
Wish i am a superhuman...
But i know i can. It's not my attitude to give up easily.
Yes, i can!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
torn between schedules
got to do lots of stuffs these days up to next week which is the scheduled date of our finals - HELL WEEK...!
deadlines, experiments, papers, exams - I'm so, so over occupied with schoolwork!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
crying again after a long time...
Four of the most acclaimed singers sang one Francis M.'s most played song : Kaleidoscope World. And these are the lyrics:
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world
Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bassline strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world
As they started singing the song, tears easily flowed on my pale cheeks. I can't help but cry. Even though I only knew him as an artist and a showbiz personality, I just can't accept the fact that he was gone. He was such a great man.
In fact, this family opened his wake to the public so his fans can see him for the last time. But I'm glad to know that Pia, his wife, is showing a picture of strength for their children despite it all.
Another thing that showed how Francis was much loved by the music industry was that, even MTV made a their logo dedicated to him.
It was still a very sad moment.
He will be cremated this day, March 11, 2009.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
encounter with my ultimate crush - YAEL!!!!
After the short chat, I hastily logged out and got my things. I rode a jeep to Melvin Jones Grand Stand just to know that they were not performing there (what a waste!). It was past 5pm. I walked my way up to Session Road where its length was covered by various booths and stalls from all over the country in line with the celebration of Panagbenga 2009 - it was "Session in Bloom."
I made my way and saw the stage being arranged by a production team from Smart Buddy. There was also a banner saying that Sponge Cola and the Bloomfieds were performing by 7pm. And so I waited. I waited alone.
At first there were few people waiting but when it was almost 7pm, the population grew fast!
I was just so irritated because the show started almost 8pm and i was hungry. My last meal was a brunch around 10 in the morning.
The event first started with a couple of games then the Bloomfields. It was such a very long performance. I wanted to seat and the people around me kept pushing and pushing all over. I just hate the crowd.
After more than an hour, they ended up their performance - thank God!
Unfortunately, it's time for another round of games...
And there came the most awaited moment!
time to rock the stage with SPONGE COLA - Yael, Armo, Gosh and Wendell.
Everyone was cheering their lungs out!
I've been silent for the whole time but this is the right moment to scream and cheer for my Yael!
Yael is undeniably the best of all!
I just can't stop cheering and jumping in my place after he came out from the backstage wearing nothing but a jacket and shoes from his favorite brand - Adidas..
He was so handsome, so appealing! That's why many girls are so, so crazily in love with him..!
I'm really glad to see him with a new haircut. He definitely looked more handsome now! With his white and smooth skin, his very powerful voice and with just his presence in the place, I just cant deny the feeling of being so much into him. I can't put my eyes off him even for a while.
I just love his voice. And I actually love his band even from the start.
He's just so awesome.
He knew how to entertain the crowd. When he stepped down the stage, he circled the fence for his wild fans and extended his arms for some kind of a contact. Luckily, I has the chance to touch his arm even for just a few seconds....oh, I really didn't want to wash my hands afterward.
They performed a few songs including KLSP, Tuliro, Di na Mababawi, Makapagtataka, Bitiw, Pare Ko, Pasubali, Puso, Sana Maulit Muli, Closer You and I, and many more... I, together with all the people out there sang with him.
On one part of the performance, Yael also sang a few lines on Francis M.'s Kaleidoscope World to give tribute to him, to thank him for all his help and to pray for his soul. He was teary-eyed that time. He bent to wipe his tears and stood up with a smile trying to cheer his crowd. Oh, it's the first time I saw him cry.
But generally, the performance wrapped up so well. So fabulous!
I didn't want the night to end. I wanted this time with Yael to be for eternity...
I just really, really love him!
I'm hoping to see them again perform soon.
Please don't say that he was overrated. This is just how i feel.
By the way, Armo was cute as well.
Gosh is my idol when it comes to song composition.
Wendell did great on his drums (he replaced Chris Cantada, the former drummer due to health reasons).
All are very talented - bound by friendship and passion for music.
And as YAEL, my love, said,
"Keep the fire Burning!"
So be it.
Friday, March 6, 2009
the death of a star - Francis M.
...while in this school library about an hour ago, i received a text from my blocmate which really shocked me...Francis Magalona is dead..
i didn't know if i woulds believe this one until i received another message.
O-My-God!
my mind was unsettled.
my heart began to race.
i can't absorb the news - or i just don't want to take it.
for another moment, we lost a great star in the showbiz industry - the master rapper; an epitome of kindness and courage... he is an ideal model for the youth and all; a responsible father and a loving husband; a friend you can run to; someone who treats you as his equal; he was the one who bridged many people's dreams. he is a picture of hope and he shares this character to everyone - even in the distance. he is a person of wit and good personality - one of the best in the Filipino scene.
he even made his own mark with the brand - 3 stars and a sun, from the Philippine flag- which is dedicated for the refueling of the nationalistic flames in the heart of each Filipino.
after being diagnosed with leukemia, he readily had his treatment sessions with the guiding support from his family, friends and millions of supporters...in fact, many of them even donated their blood for him.
i thought he was recovering. they even planned to have a collaboration between him and ely buendia and i was so excited about this.
this is a really, really sad day not just for me but for the entire country. sure thing the Philippines is praying for him and his family.
I'm also praying that he may rest in peace and now live in the kingdom of our Heavenly Father. he deserves to be there, he always has.
so sad today....
but this day is so boring to the point that sleeping doesn't even help.
after 10 minutes I'll be logging out, we will be having a class meeting for our performance in PE2 - Dance Aerobics...
haha..
what a PE!
another thing is that i hate the weather...
so cloudy...
there isn't even a single steak of light from the sun...
so gloomy...
oh...
wish i have something/someone to cheer me up...
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
an innocent brave heart
young and playful class like these. Most of then are ages 6-7.
We were asked to read then short English stories and we had given quizzes afterward.
It's a little bit difficult to teach them because some are not paying attention; one of the smallest kids in the room was so noisy and he even 'bullied' most of his classmates despite our presence; some boys kept on running and running and screaming all around; and at every point, there would be someone crying - I didn't know what to do.
But one girl caught my attention - Phyllis Aguilar. I asked her why she was crying and then her classmates around her told me that she was
And then, she began whispering something with her soft voice. I moved closer to her so I can hear her better. She was wearing a black pin on her dress.
She said that she's irritated because Kassle was teasing her, telling some sort of things as they were exchanging their papers. She also said that before, it was a long time that
I indeed adored her courage to keep on moving forward despite her age.
I was so amazed - a young child with a fighting soul of her own.
After the class, we collected their papers and asked the assigned cleaners to stay and clean the room. Phyllis approached me and stated that she was one of the day's cleaners.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
microeconomics exam....so bloody difficult! da*n...
we started the exam by 10:00 am and we extended till 12:35pm..
my tummy really growled so loud..
good thing we sat one seat apart...
pathetic...
i wanted to pass my test answers early, even before 12 noon...
i can't answer the latter part of the exam..
the first ones were so easy - i think some sort of a give-away...
but the last part exhausted all my remaining energy...
i don't want to think about it now...
i'll just do better next time...
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
keep things to where they should be
Luckily, i was able to borrow a copy from a friend and had i xeroxed at a distance for a one-jeep ride (so exhausting...).
I began reading the material which almost occupied me the whole day. I actually skipped some of the pages just to be able to finish it.
By past midnight, my eyes and my brain are already arguing. My eyes demanded its sleep but my brain kept on pushing me to finish my paper.
Good thing i hadn't gave up too soon. I finished my reflection paper by 1:14 am...and then i was able to sleep worry-free...
Friday, February 20, 2009
hate blood tests!

i had my 2nd day of check-up yesterday. the cute nurse tried to get my BP four times and got the reading of 90/70 compared to 70/50 the other day.
the doctor suggested me to have a blood test to see if i have problems like being anemic or so. i am not afraid of needles but i can't endure pain (especially medical ones) and i believe the two seemed top be synonymous now.
i'd prefer to get an injection than for them to take even the least amount of blood from the weak veins,,,,oh, i think i would prefer to be anemic than to gut by blood sucked...,
what mess am i on??
Thursday, February 19, 2009
A Foggy Valentine's Day
I had a pile of laundry in the morning and went to school after lunch.
But foremost, my day started with flooding text messages from 3 kinds of people – those who are in love, the bitter ones, and those who don’t care. Well, in return, i also send my message to all of them.
As for most of my friends, they recognized this as SAD – Singles’ Awareness Day, or BAD – Biter Awareness Day. So cool!
After getting my assigned readings from the university library, i went to court A to watch the ongoing basketball games.
By 5pm, the scheduled game between ComSci@up.bag (our org) and ACS began. It was a hot fight. The opposing team scored first.
It’s getting dark. The team need to hurry to catch with the scores. After 4 quarters, by the blessing of God, an overtime was announced due to a tie.
Everyone’s getting hotter. It’s so intense. We are cheering hard for our players and with pure skills, good thing they won! This calls for a celebration.
A few minutes of drizzle.
It’s so foggy up here.
I’m freezing with just wearing a blouse, short shorts and flip flops. Blame me.
The org decided to eat out and have a “shot.” As usual, i declined. I really wanted to go with them but i think the weather hindered me on going. One thing more, i don’t have a company when i have to go home. And as i said, it’s cold. So i said goodbye and we had our separate ways.
When i reached our boarding house, i asked my housemates if they wanted to celebrate even for just a while – t say that at least we enjoyed the day. Pathetic.
Since we are all uncommitted, we – Tin, Renee, Abiel and I – decided to walk our way to
There was a big event going on. Lots of people gathered around the area – families, lovebirds, group of friends - it seemed like we were the only ones “loveless” in town.
Since it’s also a season of Panagbenga – the ever famous Flower Festival of Baguio City – a market encounter can be visited at the vicinity. Lots of stalls from all-over the country selling different kinds of goods. And the diffusing aroma of the foods made our tastebuds crave..hmmmmm...
Also in the middle of the lake was a grand theatrical production. It’s very nice. I really love it. The “Phantom of the Opera” was the theme of the night. The costumes are well prepared. The artists did well. The voices are really astounding. The lights and effects were perfect. It was a high-cost production, obviously.
It’s getting warm. The crowd made me feel suffocated. I’m hungry so we decided to eat, except for Renee. We ate one footlong each. After the sight-seeing, we decided to go home.
By reaching our place, we decided to celebrate some more. So we bought an all-in-one pizza in a restaurant near us. We ate and took pictures... and and took pictures until we were full, exhausted and sleepy. Splurge to the max!
____________________
Oh i remember, a few of my couple friends told me it’s sweeter to go on a date r celebrate love on ordinary days – unplanned, more surprising. Another said (while hugging her girlfriend) it’s Valentine’s everyday for them. And i definitely agree.
The essence of this occasion is now with flowers, cakes, chocolates, dinners. Not the occasion itself but the attitude towards it. We can feel it’s a Happy Heart’s Day everyday if we want; if we celebrate with the right people who appreciate us with the simplicity of life; if we believe we can be happy indeed and if we remember this occasion with the Lord. As simple as that.

| Category: | Books |
| Genre: | Mystery & Thrillers |
| Author: | dan brown |
“Sometimes, divine revelation simply means adjusting your brain to hear what your heart already knows.”
This novel is just awesome! I really like this book. The plot, the twist. Everything was creatively written. It was polished by situations greatly imagined by Brown with inclusions of real-life setting and events. Brown took us to the deepest part of Rome and the Vatican. There are lots of new information in here. Papal elections, laws, conducts. Not just that. This novel contained a great deal of knowledge about the vast realms of science – specifically physics and some biology. The debate of the never-ending war between science and religion was narrated perfectly in each line. This novel truly exposed with revelations about the world we thought we already knew completely. This is such a great exploration. This book really made me think. The relationships between the common people, US Presidents, Masons, popes, the Illuminati – produced a narrative in depth. I was so amazed by how Mr. Brown found every detail closely related to each other and how the sequences occurred totally made this one a big hit. Land. Air. Water. Fire. The Illuminati Diamond. The great legend. I don’t know how to describe it. it all happened in a span of just less than 24 hours and it was packed with thrill and so much mysteries to unfurl – truly fast-paced. I really had a hard time putting it down because of the eagerness to know how it will conclude. This book didn’t fail to recognize the important dimensions of the realm of science and religion to man. Brown is utterly one helluva writer! He’s got a powerful mind and heart which really worked well with his pen and paper. Kudos!
Friday, February 13, 2009
a sense of moving on...

I just saw its correlation to our daily , normal lives. Most of the moments, we are hearing the topic of moving on from those whose relationship just concluded; and more often than not, the broken-hearted ones feel like that heavens just fallen onto them...hay...
But i believe, moving on is more flexible when it comes to feelings and related evens.
Generally, moving on is gathering your strength after a fall - may it be the tiniest thing or the most difficult task you can imagine. Or it could mean choosing another path you think will give you more space for individual growth and freedom. Somehow, it is taking yourself back.
A for the classroom setting, moving on from one topic to another is indicative that after the previous lessons have been taught, we still need more knowledge and experience in order to endure nd be better off.
Life is an accumulation of everything. Moving forward means a higher level of understanding and inner strength. After passing through the initial stages, life says that it is now time to walk into a path wherein we never set foot before. This is a new episode; the symbol of a higher self-identification and perseverance giving yourself a chance for an upturn.
But it has its own processes that we must follow. It is unique for everyone. We must discover the steps ourselves so we can follow through.
We must face the reality so we won't be static. Moving on allows change which is a healthy and has always been a "given" part of our existence.
love story
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | International |
| Artist: | Taylor Swift |
i actually don't know the real story behind their affair, and i don't care either.
Anyways, this song flew its position so easily on all music countdowns since its release.
I know the concept is not unique but i liked it. I think it's cute. Taylor is undeniably so pretty and her partner looked close to Joe on the first scene (just trying to relate things here).
It's a Romeo and Juliet love story. The lyrics are simple but are nice to the ears. The tune is also good. Really suited for Valentine's Day.
One thing more, their settings are really great. Especially the “mini” castle. It's really romantic. The production did it well. Her voice fits the song perfectly. Just love it!






