a gloomy Tuesday

for another morning, i woke up with the sun concealed by the thick clouds out there...
again, my day began with a bad mood due to this.
the weather is cold...


Physics11 class just ended.
the result of our exam was released.
good thing i got a passing mark -- higher than i thought...haha.

i can't see the sun..
thick clouds are all over...
plus there's always a cold breeze brushing in my arms which makes my goosebumps visible (oh i really hate them)...

hope that the sun would shine later...
for a longer period of time..

oooopps,,,
gotta go...

it's time for English 1...

physics 11 first long eXam....

KAGABI
i tried to review 'til past midnight my lecture notes in Physics together with the heavy Physics book i borrowed from the library. i also opened my mail and saw that Sir Ian already sent me the copy of the past lessons. unfortunately, i wasn't able to have it printed because it consumed 12 pages and it cannot be copied perfectly on MS Word - some figures and illustrations cannot be pasted and the equations were all scrambled up when i tried to copy the whole lecture.

good thing my notes are quite clear and complete - i think so.

KANINA
i woke up early to get prepared.
i arrived 20 minutes before the time... so early.
Sir Lem took charge in giving us our exam... no problem with me.

the bad thing was that the test paper and exam sheets which were distributed are all color brown (and the paper seems to be in bad condition) and the words were really blurry (and there were horizontal blank lines which made reading more difficult). i was able to finish the exam but i'm not sure if i got them right. another thing is that some questions weren't discussed (like the topic on Conservation of Momentum).

just hoping to have a passing mark.
i'll try to do better next time.

ulan ng ulan....nakakainis na,,,parang hindi summer!!!

i went or the school library to borrow a book in physics and to use the Internet to check my mail if i already got Sir Agulo's readings...
i came here while the sun was brightly beaming from above, it took me a couple of minutes before i was able to choose which book to pick.
when i came to the Serials Section of the lib, i was shocked to see the heavy rain fall! it was just a matted of minutes when the sun was just around.

so sad...
i really hate the rain like what i'm usually saying in my blogs.

i can't feel it's summer.
what the fuss!

Camp John Hay Eco Trail for PE2 summer class

i woke up early this morning to prepare for the first meeting of my PE class (Outdoor Recreation). when we arrived in our room, Sir Florendo just started discussing our course outline.

after a few more words, he said that we could have our break for around 20-30 minutes before our first activity - we will be travelling be foot to Camp John Hay to finish the Eco Trail located there. i was really surprised by this early announcement. i was only wearing a sleeveless and a jacket on top, with my tight skinny jeans and posh flip flops...O-M-G! i wasn't even prepared for a walk. i thought that since this is the first day we were only about to submit our class cards to him. but since this was the class that i enrolled, i have no choice but to agree on whatever our Prof's decision will be.

After a few minutes, we gathered to the main entrance of the university and then we began to get moving. i walked with my friend Jenica who is a resident of the same dorm i'm staying in as well. we knew each other since first year and we've been classmates in most of our subjects the previous sem. another good this was that both of us wore the same type of clothing - at least may partner ako...haha.

we reached the gate and began the trail. the grass is wet due to the rain last night; the ground is muddy which made our descent more 'dangerous' since we were afraid of slipping here and there; the frogs are all noisy... making our trail more irritating for me. but despite all these, i really loves the scene - the tall pine trees, the dew on the leaves, the rays of the sun trying to penetrate through the woods, the imbalance between the coldness and the warmth in the trail.

i also enjoyed a number of bridges (hanging and wooded ones) which we passed in order to get to next place, which ironically Jenica hated the most. she even cried at the sight of the first hanging bridge we were about to pass.

it was almost an hour of ups, downs, curves, and skips before we were able to be on the main site. yes it was exhausting... really exhausting...

we rested for a couple of minutes and then started our way back...
oh no..
not again....

the sky is gray with heavy clouds...i'm really afraid it might rain.
oh i hate the rain!

so when Sir told us that we are dismissed once we finished our way back, we hastily get on our feet and walked as fast as we can with the most careful steps we were able to make.

another draining hour of walk.
walk. walk. walk. climb. descent. here and there.

this time, we were more relaxed since we already knew the path.
we were also able to take a few pictures even in the hanging bridge.

(midway, i saw a crab around 3 inches long. i tried to move it and saw it was alive indeed. i was shocked to see an orange crab on the woods... i even told my other classmates about it before moving forward. Sir Florendo saw it as well and said that one classmate took it with him...haha)

well... it was such a nice experience... though it really made both my feet tired. this is my first time to travel that trail and it was fulfilling for me.

hope for another crazy adventure from this class...
most especially, looking forward in going to Sagada before summer class ends...

loaded with schoolwork..

dami na agad ginagawa...
daming readings..
yung iba di pa nesesend ni Sir Ian sa e-mail add ko..
but i'm enjoying our class activities so far...
mejo pinagpapawisan lang kung recitation mode na..haha...
pero sana masanay na lang...
buong summer term din to..
so sana everything will turn out to be fine..
i'll pray for this...

goodbye vacation, hello summer class...oh no..

after just having less than 2 weeks of break from the toxic life from the university, here starts another set of weeks to go crazy over loads of school works.

my summer class just started yesterday...good thing it went out fine despite of having the worst expectations that i had since this is my first time to enroll for summer studies...

i think class would last for four to five weeks, final exams included.

hope to enjoy all my subjects - Physics 11, English 1 and PE2 (Outdoor recreation)..

and hope to have new friends too...

by the way, i will be staying at the UP Ladies' Dorm during summer... for the first time as well...
just hoping to have sound sleep there...
hahaha..
though there are rumors saying supernatural beings live in the place..
may they leave me in peace...

a friend from abroad called..

a Malaysian friend just asked for my number last night and i really didn't expect that he would seriously call after that.. Around 10 pm this night, he just called. I wasn't able to answer the first one because my cell phone was in silent mode and it's battery was wearing low.. At first, i wasn't really sure who was calling me and then he texted me and asked it id was really my number. I replied and said yes, asked him to call me if he can.. and he really did.

We just had a short conversation since the line was choppy and i can't hear some of his words, but i guess we understood each other more or less with accuracy.

He actually sounded like a Chinese, which really shocked me because he was an Australian who was born in Iran and is now at Malaysia..what a world tour!

We bid goodbye and he said he would call me sometime "later" - i don't know precisely what that means.

After putting down the phone, he texted me to go online so we could chat but i read the message late because i took a bath first.

Hope he would call soon...
again.

reading the Zahir by Paulo Coelho

i haven't finished this book yet because I've been so busy with lots of stuffs plus sometimes, i end up sleeping on our couch during afternoons.



But i really love this book..i really love how he wrote each sentence,,



it is enveloped with such magical power to make his readings finish and turn to the next page...



it's really hard to put this book down..

i actually finished reading The Pilgrimage first..

it really took me to another world..

i though it was outside of my self, but then i realized that the character is me..i am also doing my own pilgrimage as i read this book... i think i also felt i was in trance because of the words...

i tried some exercised indicated in this book as well..

really nice..

chat with my cousin abroad

after a long time,,,we've seen our cousin who lives now at Texas..
she's the one financing my educarion now together with her husband..
we just chat for a while with webcams on so we can see each other.
she's aldo glad she saw us all here including my brothers, my dad, her sisses and her mom..
hope to have another chat tomorrow...
it's night there at Texas so they gotta sleep...
they need to go to work early...

bonding time with my chums..swimming mode!

yan ang complete list (i think..) namin na pumunta sa swimming just a few moments ago at Villa Carlota Resort...
kakauwi lang namin..
nakakapagod pero bitin ung time..madami kasi sa boys kailangan na umuwi eh..(oh diba? ung boys pa ang walang late permit sa parents...haha..)
pero ok naman kasi enjoy..bonding time uli after a long time na di kami nagkita-kita...
sana maulit uli...soon..
sayang lang..walang pics..busy kasi lahat..
"thanks for another happy memory guys!"

new moon

my brother's graduation...

due to the length of travel from baguio city to tarlac,,
i was very unfortunate to be unable to see my brother march to the stage..
i really tried my best to finish all the processes of my summer enrolment in order to be home early, but despite all the rush and haste, i didn't make it..

one reason for the delay is that i also dropped by SM to buy him a graduation present..
hmmm..
i'm still sad...
his sister was not there to clap for him when his name was called to receive his diploma...
UHLEN VAN R. VILLA,,,

so sad..
so, so sad..
i hate myself...

miley cyrus: the climb

Category: Music
Genre: International
Artist: miley cyrus

..really nice..
it's been on my playlists for weeks,,,
the words..
the tune..
the inner thought..
i actually don't like miley but i'm really caught by this one...
the MTV is so dramatic as well..
i'm not so much into the way she sang this...
i just love the song...

my first night at the dorm

for summer class, i will be spending my warm (warm nga kaya?) days at the UP ladies' dorm...

hay..first time ko yung kagabi..
though may kasama ako sa room..of course nanibago pa rin ako...
katext ko pa kasi before going to sleep yung isa kong blocmate..
i tried to sleep...edi ok na...
pero pagising-gising ako..
then nagforward ba naman unf blocmate ko ng ghost messages,,,
ayun..lalo tuloy ako nahirapan,,
pero i think sa simula lang naman eh,,,
sana magsurvive,,,
haha,,,

summer enrolment

back to school to enrol for summer class 2009 for the first time in my life...

hope i can pass all my subjects..

nakakapagod na naman magtravel...and it's so expensive..

wish i can look for a summer job..

(n_n)

baguio-bound bea

,,,pabalik na naman ng baguio..
enrolment tomorrow...
hope to be back tomorrow night...
graduation day of my bro,,

gotta see him march...

Chosen Blindness

Asleep?

Nothing is seen.

Everything is black.

The air is thin.

My heart is pounding.

I can feel my veins.

I held my breath.

Grasped for consciousness.

Tried to make more steps.

I can’t.

I’m crippled.

I opened my eyes.

There’s no one...

there’s nothing.

A vacuum.

I feared...

I trembled.

Now, I prefer my eyes closed.

Closed up to my deepest dreams.

Asleep?

i dreamt about my Econ102 Prof pagkatapos ng exam...(i just forgot to post this..)

..the day right after our last exam kay Ma'am Gladys sa Econ 102, it's so weird that i dreamt about her..
hmmmm...alam nyo naman ang dreams, super magulo...
setting: classroom somewhere...characters: ako, Ma'am Gladys and highskul friends (na di ko naman naging classmates ever, except in this dream)..
basta magulo eh...
after kong lumabas ng class, parang may naaalala akong scene na slightly nagsasagutan si Ma'am and isang classmate...
paglabas ni Ma'am, ayun umiiyak,,
hala..first time kong makita si Ma'am na umiyak...ever,,
,sobrang unusual talaga..
tapos super comfort naman daw ako kay Ma'am...
gusto ko syang yakapin pero ewan bakit di ko ginawa,,hay,,,ang weird talaga,,,

rain, rain go away...!!!!

it's raining here and i'm feeling cold....
grrrrrrr.....



i don't know why but i always hate the rain...
it makes me feel SAD...

BORED...
SLEEPY....
LIFELESS...



it seems that i can't do anything good and right when the rain is falling...
i wish i have this anti-gravity power to keep the rain hanging up
as clouds there in the pale sky,
so they won't fall...
so there's no need for me to bring my 3-fold umbrella...
so there won't be sticky mud on the grounds that would surely mess my shoes...
so there won't be flood that gives different kinds of illness to the kids
that enjoy swimming in it.

i just hate the rain...

but i can't be so selfish about it.
many still wish for this rain.
the farmers - to have healthier crops...
to the forest so it would be nourished...
for the plants to grow...
to sustain a new life...
to continue existence,,,


i guess this is what the nature wants us to learn...

there are thing we despise,
but we must accept their existence because they fuel the lives of others.

oh...
but i still hope,,
the rain would end soon...

Earth Hour 2009

we participated in this life-saving moment...the Earth Hour 2009...
by 8:30 in the evening..all lights are off and good thing, almost the whole neighborhood joined as well.

The only lights that can be seen are those yellow and while street lights on the main roads..

aside from that, our place was enveloped in total darkness...

So nice to see many participated in this aim... =)

As a Greenpeace member, I encouraged many people to join and do the same thing.

It's just a small thing, a small sacrifice of darness in order to a better kind of light - for me, for you, for the next generation.

The Philippines is an active participant on these kinds of activities...

Hope everyone will participate as well in the future Earth Hours...=)

so, so, so tired...

...i went to the city this afternoon to deposit some money..
the sun was striking its painful hot rays...
..
i felt really warm...
after depositing, i went to Tarlac State University to get the exam results of my brother,,
then i went to the mall...

walk-and-walk-and-walk-under-the-bright-bright-sunshine.
my skin is getting darker even though i'm using my Totes umbrella.,..
from the mall..
i made my way to the main street...

then to Far East Trading..
i bought tiny beads which eventually popped into jelly-like gaudy spheres when soaked for a few hours in the water...really nice..
then i looked for a place to buy some other stuffs,,,
..finally..
i rode my way to the terminal home,,
Good thing, i accidentally bumped with a friend..
an elementary and high school classmate..
we chat with each other while waiting for a ride...
she told me updates about some of our friends,,,
It's so nice to see an old friend again after a long time,,,
..
I went home exhausted..
yet happy for what had happened...
so nice to bring back the memories,,,,indeed,,..

a happy feeling...after finishing my last exam for this sem... =)

...after magreview til 4:30 in the morning kanina...
sa wakas, natapos din ang madugong exam sa 102!

ang sarap ng feeling...!!!!
of course, my mga di ako nasagot and sure din n meron akong mistakes pero ok lng...
at least feeling ko papasa naman kahit pano...

tapos na ang exams...
pwede na huminga...
submissions na lang na ibang requirements (psych 140) and STFAP...hay...
then..
uwian na!!!

it's over......!!!!!!!!!!!!

a sense of fulfillment on training a pigeon

OMG!!!
ang galing-galing ni Tetay!!!
after our depressing training with Am and Roan...
thank God, she learned 3 tricks!
we are so proud of her!!!
we almost cried every night while training her to do the tricks in my place...
and we almost give up because of this...
but our hard work paid off.

we presented her this afternoon to Prof. Astudillo and ayun.,.
she was glad with her amazing performance...
she said that our pigeon was a fast learner...
with no mistakes,,,

our Prof. congratulated us for a job well done......
she gave us 100 points for this,,,a perfect score actually...

it was really fulfilling for me!!!
i can't believe it...
we made this thing happen!!!!
so great!
(sorry, maybe I'm over acting already but this is how i feel right now...haha
please bear with me .. )

so hectic...i can't even breathe

...it's Saturday...the sun hides behind the clouds - this-makes-me-sad-sad-sad.
we have no classes.
but it's more demanded to go to school today.

We have our class practice for PE2 - Dance Aero.
You know what happened?

• I came first
• Not even a half attended
• We practiced at Sunshine Park where we were bathed with smoke (eeew! so annoying because i just took a bath!)
• We learned just a few steps
• We dismissed early
• Nothing so much was gained

Today is the scheduled day of thesis defense of my graduating orgmates and friends. I'm so sad I can't watch them because I still have lots of things to do. And one thing more, I'm only wearing shorts. Though it is ok, i still feel that i should have worn anything more formal for the event. =(
Right now, i'm here at the university library (AGAIN) to find more reading materials for my exams. Library hours is extended up to 7 in the evening. I still have to do research for our experiment. I need to do my auto-shaping for my Psych140 class. Our Behavior Modification Program (BPM) group project is still hanging.

I have more than a hundred-page reading to get done til Monday.
So pathetic.
Wish i am a superhuman...
But i know i can. It's not my attitude to give up easily.
Yes, i can!

torn between schedules

...oh my gosh!

got to do lots of stuffs these days up to next week which is the scheduled date of our finals - HELL WEEK...!
deadlines, experiments, papers, exams - I'm so, so over occupied with schoolwork!

how i wish i could get through to this without broken bones.
with over 500 pages of reading materials to finish and understand, i don't know if i can still manage to stay alive.

wish me luck!

crying again after a long time...

Last Sunday around noon, as i was scanning the channels for something to watch I accidentally got on a local station here where the artists paid tribute to Francis M.'s legacy.

Four of the most acclaimed singers sang one Francis M.'s most played song : Kaleidoscope World. And these are the lyrics:

Kaleidoscope World

So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bassline strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

We can easily see what he wants to say with his song (and with his other songs as well). He wants everyone to have equality, to help each other, to live better through a good interpersonal relationship.

As they started singing the song, tears easily flowed on my pale cheeks. I can't help but cry. Even though I only knew him as an artist and a showbiz personality, I just can't accept the fact that he was gone. He was such a great man.

In fact, this family opened his wake to the public so his fans can see him for the last time. But I'm glad to know that Pia, his wife, is showing a picture of strength for their children despite it all.

Another thing that showed how Francis was much loved by the music industry was that, even MTV made a their logo dedicated to him.

It was still a very sad moment.
He will be cremated this day, March 11, 2009.

encounter with my ultimate crush - YAEL!!!!

...while spending time here in the library yesterday afternoon, i got the chance to chat with Yan Yuzon (from the bands Pupil and Archipelago)... I was asking him when will they come back here either with his another band - Archipelago - or with his brother Yael. He said that Yael was just right here at Baguio City.

After the short chat, I hastily logged out and got my things. I rode a jeep to Melvin Jones Grand Stand just to know that they were not performing there (what a waste!). It was past 5pm. I walked my way up to Session Road where its length was covered by various booths and stalls from all over the country in line with the celebration of Panagbenga 2009 - it was "Session in Bloom."

I made my way and saw the stage being arranged by a production team from Smart Buddy. There was also a banner saying that Sponge Cola and the Bloomfieds were performing by 7pm. And so I waited. I waited alone.

At first there were few people waiting but when it was almost 7pm, the population grew fast!

I was just so irritated because the show started almost 8pm and i was hungry. My last meal was a brunch around 10 in the morning.

The event first started with a couple of games then the Bloomfields. It was such a very long performance. I wanted to seat and the people around me kept pushing and pushing all over. I just hate the crowd.

After more than an hour, they ended up their performance - thank God!
Unfortunately, it's time for another round of games...

And there came the most awaited moment!
time to rock the stage with SPONGE COLA - Yael, Armo, Gosh and Wendell.
Everyone was cheering their lungs out!

I've been silent for the whole time but this is the right moment to scream and cheer for my Yael!
Yael is undeniably the best of all!
I just can't stop cheering and jumping in my place after he came out from the backstage wearing nothing but a jacket and shoes from his favorite brand - Adidas..
He was so handsome, so appealing! That's why many girls are so, so crazily in love with him..!

I'm really glad to see him with a new haircut. He definitely looked more handsome now! With his white and smooth skin, his very powerful voice and with just his presence in the place, I just cant deny the feeling of being so much into him. I can't put my eyes off him even for a while.

I just love his voice. And I actually love his band even from the start.
He's just so awesome.

He knew how to entertain the crowd. When he stepped down the stage, he circled the fence for his wild fans and extended his arms for some kind of a contact. Luckily, I has the chance to touch his arm even for just a few seconds....oh, I really didn't want to wash my hands afterward.

They performed a few songs including KLSP, Tuliro, Di na Mababawi, Makapagtataka, Bitiw, Pare Ko, Pasubali, Puso, Sana Maulit Muli, Closer You and I, and many more... I, together with all the people out there sang with him.

On one part of the performance, Yael also sang a few lines on Francis M.'s Kaleidoscope World to give tribute to him, to thank him for all his help and to pray for his soul. He was teary-eyed that time. He bent to wipe his tears and stood up with a smile trying to cheer his crowd. Oh, it's the first time I saw him cry.

But generally, the performance wrapped up so well. So fabulous!
I didn't want the night to end. I wanted this time with Yael to be for eternity...
I just really, really love him!
I'm hoping to see them again perform soon.

Please don't say that he was overrated. This is just how i feel.

By the way, Armo was cute as well.


Gosh is my idol when it comes to song composition.


Wendell did great on his drums (he replaced Chris Cantada, the former drummer due to health reasons).


All are very talented - bound by friendship and passion for music.


And as YAEL, my love, said,

"Keep the fire Burning!"

So be it.

the death of a star - Francis M.

...while in this school library about an hour ago, i received a text from my blocmate which really shocked me...Francis Magalona is dead..

i didn't know if i woulds believe this one until i received another message.

O-My-God!

my mind was unsettled.
my heart began to race.

i can't absorb the news - or i just don't want to take it.

for another moment, we lost a great star in the showbiz industry - the master rapper; an epitome of kindness and courage... he is an ideal model for the youth and all; a responsible father and a loving husband; a friend you can run to; someone who treats you as his equal; he was the one who bridged many people's dreams. he is a picture of hope and he shares this character to everyone - even in the distance. he is a person of wit and good personality - one of the best in the Filipino scene.

he even made his own mark with the brand - 3 stars and a sun, from the Philippine flag- which is dedicated for the refueling of the nationalistic flames in the heart of each Filipino.

after being diagnosed with leukemia, he readily had his treatment sessions with the guiding support from his family, friends and millions of supporters...in fact, many of them even donated their blood for him.

i thought he was recovering. they even planned to have a collaboration between him and ely buendia and i was so excited about this.

this is a really, really sad day not just for me but for the entire country. sure thing the Philippines is praying for him and his family.

I'm also praying that he may rest in peace and now live in the kingdom of our Heavenly Father. he deserves to be there, he always has.

so sad today....

एरी..yeah I know it's always unwise to consume some of my very limited time here on earth with just doin' nothing at all...
but this day is so boring to the point that sleeping doesn't even help.

after 10 minutes I'll be logging out, we will be having a class meeting for our performance in PE2 - Dance Aerobics...
haha..
what a PE!

another thing is that i hate the weather...
so cloudy...
there isn't even a single steak of light from the sun...
so gloomy...

oh...
wish i have something/someone to cheer me up...

an innocent brave heart

..yesterday, while we were doing our NSTP at Fort del Pilar Elementary School, inside the Philippine Military Academy (PMA) premises, we were asked to teach Grade I pupils. It's actually my first time to handle a very
young and playful class like these. Most of then are ages 6-7.

We were asked to read then short English stories and we had given quizzes afterward.

It's a little bit difficult to teach them because some are not paying attention; one of the smallest kids in the room was so noisy and he even 'bullied' most of his classmates despite our presence; some boys kept on running and running and screaming all around; and at every point, there would be someone crying - I didn't know what to do.

But one girl caught my attention - Phyllis Aguilar. I asked her why she was crying and then her classmates around her told me that she was English-speaking. I was surprised. I thought all of them talks Filipino. Then using my English tongue, I began asking her the reason of her tears. At first, she seemed to decline talking but then, she said that Kassle, her seatmate, was teasing her. So i told her to ignore her classmate and just focus to we can proceed with our lesson.
And then, she began whispering something with her soft voice. I moved closer to her so I can hear her better. She was wearing a black pin on her dress.

She said that she's irritated because Kassle was teasing her, telling some sort of things as they were exchanging their papers. She also said that before, it was a long time that her father was unable to talk and move like normal. His father just recently died. She told me the date and even wrote it on her paper. I comforted her and whispered that I was sorry to hear the sad news and everything will be fine. She replied that she was ok since she still have her mom and 3 other siblings.

I indeed adored her courage to keep on moving forward despite her age.
I was so amazed - a young child with a fighting soul of her own.

After the class, we collected their papers and asked the assigned cleaners to stay and clean the room. Phyllis approached me and stated that she was one of the day's cleaners.

She left the room with a smile on her face. Hope that as she grow old, she would have a stronger spirit to survive the following challenges on her life. I believe this is a good start, and she would definitely be able to surpass every trial - no matter how difficult it will be.